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A Streak, Broken – But Not Me

A marble café table with an iced latte, a spinach pastry, and an open laptop showing blog stats — a quiet afternoon of writing and reflection.


Just wanna laugh. I opened my laptop with full intention to write my blog – and then it hit me. 

I broke the streak.

 

The streak I’ve been proudly keeping all year: one post, every month, without fail. And now, it’s gone. Quietly. Slipped away without warning. 

 

Honestly, I don’t even know how to feel about it.

Part of me is… okay with it? Maybe even a little proud. 

Because it means I’ve been so caught up in life, in doing things, in being productive – that I didn’t even realize the time passed. But another part of me, the part that made this commitment on New Year’s Day, feels a bit disappointed. Like I let a small version of me down. The kind of disappointed that no one else might understand – but I do. 

 

It might seem like a small thing to others. 

But to me, it mattered. 

 

Well, let the past be past. What matters is this moment – this month. 

And this month… I turned 27.

A year ago, I wrote about turning 26. Somehow, that already feels like a different version of me.

 

No big surprises, no loud celebrations, and somehow, I liked it that way. 

Just a few messages from my closest friends and family. The kind that doesn’t need fireworks to feel warm.

It made me feel remembered. Loved. Like I still matter – and that’s more than enough. 

 

Funny how growing older changes what you hope for. 

At 27, I’m not chasing noise anymore. I’m chasing peace. 

And I think I’m starting to feel it. 

 

There’s something about this age that feels like an upgrade.

Not in a loud, dramatic way – more like a quiet software update in the background.

The way I think, the way I approach problems, the way I give myself grace when plans don’t go perfectly.

It’s all different now. A little calmer. A little softer. A little more… me.

Everything I planned for this year? Most of it is going well. 

Not perfectly – of course not. 

There were moments I wanted to give up, take a detour, scrap the whole plan. 

But somehow, I always find my way back. And that matters. 

That’s growth. 

 

Lately, I’ve been thinking… maybe life isn’t about getting everything right.

Maybe it’s more about showing up – even if we’re a bit late. 

It’s about choosing to continue even after we fall off the track. 

It’s in these quiet moments of returning, that we learn what kind of person we really are. 

 

And I think I’m starting to like the person I’m becoming. 

Not because he’s perfect, but because he tries.

And because he never really stops – even when he’s tried, even when he’s unsure, even when the streak is broke. 

 

So here I am. 

Writing again. 

Not to prove anything, but simply because it brings me back to myself. 

“Growth doesn’t always look like progress. Sometimes, it’s just choosing to return – quietly and still willing to try.”

Comments

  1. ❤️❤️❤️

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  2. Bahagia selalu ya Chan😊

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  3. This month is a new month, a month where you will become more mature, more self-controlled, where you grow towards a higher level of maturity. Believe that everything that has happened, is happening, and will happen is by God's permission and plan, so, I am sure you will be formed into a better person according to your own version. Keep happy and peace always be with you.

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  4. Senang sekali membaca jurnal Anda, dan melihat Anda tumbuh secara fisik, mental, dan emosional. Saya belajar untuk membuat pilihan dalam hidup, mendengarkan hati dan pikiran saya, dan hadir di setiap momen.

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  5. Such a good thoughts, thank you for sharing it with us

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  6. Happy birthday leo!!!

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