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Fighters of Life

A person sitting quietly inside a café on a rainy evening, gazing out through a large glass window. Raindrops blur the city lights outside, creating a soft, reflective mood.

Here I am again.

Still trying to keep my blogging streak alive – though let’s be honest, it’s more of a “monthly” streak than anything else. Today, I’m sitting in a café with a full glass wall, watching the rain hit the pavement. The reflection shimmer on the wet ground, swirled by a bit of wind. It’s peaceful in a strange way. 

 

Life’s been so busy lately that I barely have time for myself. But even in the chaos, I feel like I’m moving forward. Like I’ve entered a new chapter. I’m focusing more on the things I actually enjoy, meeting people who inspire me, and starting most mornings with a smile – even if I end the day exhausted, at least I end it a little wiser.

 

Most days, I wake up at 4:30 a.m. If I’m even five minutes late, traffic turns into a nightmare. Days blur into weeks, weeks into months. And every morning, as I see so many cars on the road, it hits me – I’m not alone. We’re all fighters in our own way. Fighters of life.

Sometimes I catch myself comparing my life to friends who get to sleep in, who don’t have to deal with this rush. But even then, I feel lucky. I’ve reached a point where I can genuinely say I enjoy what I’m going through. I know I’m working toward something. Something better. Something bigger.

 

Driving 2–3 hours a day, back and forth, gives me a lot of time to think. And sing. (Only for myself, of course – the kind of concerts that stay between me and my car).

In traffic, random thoughts appear out of nowhere. I wonder what the people in other cars are thinking. I reflect on my own day – what went well, what didn’t, what I could do differently. Oddly enough, that window of time becomes the only space for reflection. By the time I reach my apartment, I’m too drained to even think.

 

At first, I thought it was all a waste. Spending hours on the road, sacrificing sleep. But now I see it differently. It’s all about perspective. And I choose the right one – or at least, I try to.

Because in those moments, I can catch up with my mom, my sisters, my friends – just to share life updates. Things we don’t always have time for during work hours.

 

Sometimes, I wonder if this is what growing up really means. Not the flashy achievements or dramatic milestones, but these quiet, repetitive routines that slowly shape who we are. Waking up early, showing up even when tired, doing the same route every day, yet still finding small joys – like the song that randomly plays on shuffle and makes the ride feel lighter, or a short call from someone you miss.

 

There are days I feel invisible in the crowd. Just another person in a car, in traffic, in life. But lately, I’ve been learning to see these moments differently. Maybe I don’t need to stand out all the time. Maybe being present – really present – is already enough. Enough to feel alive. Enough to matter.

 

It’s funny how the smallest things can bring clarity. A warm drink on a rainy day. A text from an old friend. A passing smile from a stranger. When I start paying attention, life feels less overwhelming. And more… connected. Like I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be, even if I don’t fully understand why yet.

 

So, for now, I’ll keep waking up early. Keep driving. Keep reflecting. Keep learning. Keep writing when I can. It might not look perfect from the outside, but somehow, this version of life feels more real to me than ever before.

 

“You don’t need to have it all figured out. Sometimes, just showing up for your own life is more than enough.”

 

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  3. I like how you find meaning in the routine - it’s comforting and real.

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